Principle

I know i haven't been posting lately. I've been too busy coping with my school and part time job. Hasn't been that easy. Guess i was too focus with my dreams and goals. With the musical training and practices coming up soon, i bet i'll have to double up my speed. You would have guess that i haven't had any quality time with my family and friends. Lets just say that i am more concerned for my family than for my friends. My relationship with my best friends; not too good. Had always been feeling like there's space in between us and all you could find are sarcasm and basically that unfriendly feeling. The uneasiness. I haven't been seeing two of my best friends for more than a month; i guess. When i'm busy, they're not or otherwise.

Honesty is a principle and i learned to apply here too. I don't mind sharing what reality offered me. You'll be thinking that i chose to boast about my dignity, pride and ego but at the same time, i prefer that readers should imply some common sense to what i type. It's not something that i chose to exaggerate about.

So here's what happened;
Recently i got myself being questioned about my relationship status. Single or attached. Not by one but at least 2-3. Well, feels more than that expected number. 

  • Taufiq
  • Fariq
  • Saiful
Though their question doesn't seem necessary that i should care for however it does makes me wonder. Of all 'concerned' questions, why that specific question. I'm not trying to say that they may like me or not; not being too over positive about it, i'm just simply saying how i feel towards their action. They just got me dismayed! 

As for my mom, she still thinks that Saiful likes/loves me but i've moved on and i am thinking that the both of us, we're just close friends. Not more than that anymore.

As for my mom, she finds Taufiq is a good partner to be with - because he has been my friend; someone that knows me longer than anybody else thus she prefers him more.

As for my mom, she just think that Fariq is just like another passer-by looking for his another dove.

Basically my instinct has been shaking lately thinking and wondering. Just what is going on!?

This thing will happen again and again. The same old thing - When i'm focusing for the better of my future and career, i'll receive proposals or dates from the other gender. Otherwise, it's just going to be another epic stupid lovey-dovey story.

For now since i am determined to conceive a good future for myself, i'm absolutely just passing by everyone and not noticing much whether he's there for me or not. For myself and i, i trust and believe in myself that i can be very independent. However i won't rely much of being independent towards my own feeling.

In the mean time,
I'm all ready and set for the start of something new.

XOXO;
Long-lost confused child with determination to succeed ..




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